Behind The Scenes 🫖, New Projects & Personal Life Update
I got asked out recently and I don't know what to do.
This intro is going to be a little bit more personal than usual.
Not going to lie, things have been kinda dark lately. Dark enough that I called my doctor to up my dosage on my prescriptions. I know that’s probably heavy for what’s supposed to be a light, fun newsletter, but I did say that newsletter subscribers would get some tea. And the tea is my depression is depressioning. 😄 (Well, there’s more. Keep reading.)
I know one big trigger is that it was this time last year that Sam’s health really started to decline, and we had to say goodbye. I’ve been looking back on the pages I wrote in my journal from this time last year. I’ll be honest, back then, I wasn’t sure how I was going to get through it. But I did. I can see the progress in each entry. (See photo below.) I know I’ll get through this. It feels better to be able to say this out loud to you guys.
The other trigger comes from feeling like my content isn’t resonating with people anymore. I don’t mean the Idaho stuff. Personally, I’m doing what I can to move away from that case. For all intents and purposes, it’s over. Maybe I’m just burnt out?
ðŸŽNow Let’s Talk Tea
I got asked out recently.
He works as a doorman at one of the buildings I frequent when picking up a dog. I explained that I didn’t give out my number, but would take his. It’s funny. Before I lost, now going on 70 pounds, I always felt pretty invisible. And I liked it that way. I’ve always been someone who was very comfortable by myself. That comes from growing up while my Mom was sick. Rightfully, the focus was on her. I learned how to keep myself occupied without feeling lonely. I’ve also been talking to my Ex more. One of the many things that appealed to me about that relationship was that he was as emotionally self-sufficient as I was. He’s very steady. He follows through. And I think he’s handsomebobansome. My biggest fear about dating again is my ADHD and depression. Because of my ADHD, I struggle with Rejection Sensitivity Dysphoria. I’m not sure I want to deal with my RSD if something doesn’t work out. I’m too afraid it might set me back and erase the progress I’ve made.
🪂New Projects
Male Gaze Murders (Character Analysis: True Crime)
Right now, I’m working on a series called Male Gaze Killers, about men who target women they don’t know and why. I wanna talk about the different stages of crimes like that - the fantasy, the planning, the aftermath, etc. I’m trying to focus on offenders other than the ones we know about.
Sex and The City Rewind
I’ve tried this before. This time, I don’t want to focus on the episode so much as delve into the themes and issues the storylines highlight. I loved my most recent episode about Face Girl and why it might be bothersome when we think someone doesn’t like us. So, if there’s an episode you want analyzed, let me know!
Idaho 4 Essay Series (Character Analysis: True Crime)
My friend suggested I write a series of essays about watching the Idaho 4 case unfold from a content creator’s perspective. She said, I should talk about the different issues that arose from the case and from how it was covered online. She wanted to give me something to be excited about, something to get my dopamine surging. She knows me so well. I feel really lucky to have her.
🎥New YouTube
My Sex and The City content is getting a good response as well over on my new Youtube page. I created a new one to keep true-crime content separate, since the two audiences don’t really overlap. Would love it if you could follow the new page.
🧠Be Sure To Follow My Substacks
This is where I post bonus podcast/video episodes, subscriber-only content, and other long-form video content that I don’t publish on TikTok or Instagram.
Character Analysis: True Crime
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